Redundancy

I tried but couldn't come up with a catchy title because there is no fun behind it. i was told on Tuesday that i was formally redundant effective immediately, so when i left the building i had no reason to return, what a joke, i've been there about half  a dozen times since. So my first day of summer was my first day of redundancy and was met with rain.
what i've learnt:
1) i've learnt that what i already knew, i took it for granted
I knew that when i was searching for something that if i stopped and meditated, i would find the answer
i'm talking even a car parking spot; losing keys etc
 with all the stress i am losing something every 5 minutes, however i know that when i am finding these same items that i know that there is a reason behind it, i am blown away with the reasoning behind where i'm finding these items
2) accepting the love
i remember about 15 years ago, while at a weight watchers meeting the tutor said how hard it was to accept a compliment. I'm not a very huggy person, but there are 70 staff and 60 residents where i worked and they were upset and wanted to reassure me. so there were many who wanted to hug me and there were many who gave me praise and i felt that i needed to validate what they were saying and feeling. by doing so it helped me so much
3) the gift of giving
i have always been a giver, i have received criticism for it, i have made many items and given them away. i have made items with no recipient in mind and at the last minute there has been someone dealing with  extreme circumstances and i have found the new owner. this last week i have found that the need to give was high and when i did it helped with the pain i was going through
4) Good things can come from bad
i remember when my kids were young i would tell them "you get back what you give out" I would explain that if you are rude, you can probably expect a rude response etc. When they complained about punishment,  I would say "when you are good, good things happen" There have been so many signs, about 6 people have quoted "when one door closes another opens" some people might have reacted negatively, but i have embraced it. This could be the start of a new beginning, the universe giving me a kick up the backside to get out and start living an authentic life.
There is more, but i will post later.
 tomorrow i catch a train and about 6 hours later i will see my mum. i have planned a visit with my Aunt and my sister, i will be away until after Christmas, but i will have computer access at times